I’m so pissed at myself right now.
I dropped this one ensemble because it was annoying me and I didn’t really have time for it.
And I have this small crush on this one guy who’s in this ensemble.
I haven’t really talked to him all semester.
Mostly because I was dating someone and didn’t want to talk about it with him
But now I’m single and I still don’t know what to say.
I’m just kicking myself because we don’t have any classes together now.
I wouldn’t care about this stupid ensemble at all, except for the fact that he’s in it.
And now I hate myself.
He probably never thinks of me at all except for the occasional, “huh, I wonder why she never even makes eye contact with me anymore…”
I don’t even know.
…I can’t even look at him. I’m 26 years old and I still can’t even look at a guy I have a mild crush on.
I’ll just be over here alone. With my cat.